Doing worse than what I was when I was on holiday, mostly due to horrible scheduling between work and me being on holiday I am not lying when I say I had 1 day of holiday break. And even then I was stressing about my art style, I have also changed a bit too, I like Mi-mi but I have not felt the same way about her for a while, I might redesign her or maybe give her ownership to someone I trust, I have made a new Sona but I have conflicting feelings about how people would react to it, and I am not happy to say but I am struggling with my gender identity, and transphobic people are making me feel very depressed, and I feel like I am not a woman, no matter how hard I try, and sadly I hate who I am. I hate what I am, I am not me. I want to get my words out but I know I can't I want to feel like the girl I am, but it is so hard for myself, my break has been awful, I place I used to love is a place I am spiteful of, I wish I never went, it has put me in a worser position of where I was when I didn't go on holiday.
Anyway that was just a bit of an update from me, see ya. I will get around to drawing those OCs soon.
GrimyGrim69
Hey
I may not know you at all, but I just want you to know that you're not alone on this, and that no matter what if you see yourself as a woman then you are a woman. For now you may feel as though you're only pretending or that you'll never be like other girls but I promise you you are. People choose to hate and hurt what they don't understand, but that shouldn’t be your problem. It's their fault for being so ignorant and anal about it all. Their insecurity should never dictate how you choose to be because you KNOW you're a woman and they're not you, so what could they know anyway?
Your gender should be dictated by what YOU feel, not what some assholes who think they know you better than you know yourself feel. Don't let them beat you down because they're too far up their own asses to let you be who you truly are.
You're a woman, and you always will be because you know thats who you are. Even if you don't "look like a woman" or "act like a woman" or any of those petty childish things people say you are A Woman.
Never let people tell you what you are. You know what you are and you should be proud of it because being who you truly are and happier is better than sucking up to people who could never understand or care about you.
Stay strong, ok?
You can only go up from here, and one day you'll be able to look in the mirror and truly believe that you are the woman you know you are. This was cheesy, but I felt like you needed to hear it.
Although I barely know you, I hope you know that I'll always be here anyway.
I hate to see anybody struggle with these types of things.
DustL
Thank you, thank you so much, this has helped me a lot, I never thought about it like that but I want to thank you for your kind words and wisdom thank you so much, this has cheered me up, I am actually proud of who I am and you have helped me to realise that, thanks to you, I can proudly say that I am a woman no matter what anyone else thinks, this has helped me a bunch, took a bit of time to realise it, but now I am certain, thank you for helping me through, I am crying whilst writing this because your heartfelt message has made me feel so emotional thank you so much, I know that we don't know each other but I would absolutely love to get to know you and maybe even become friends, I can't thank you enough about your message it was really nice and was very helpful, I feel so much better then before.